The Pilgrimage

I have a few things to say about the internship that just began. Zoey and I are no longer dating. We are pursuing a deeper friendship, without any timeline, guarantees, or strings attached. We have no idea if we'll ever resume a courting relationship. But the internship didn't break us up. True enough, the Intern Leaders had multiple conversations with each of us and ultimately asked us/me to step back in order to more fully engage with my issues and baggage during the internship. But both Zoey and I felt peace about that, because we know God is in it. Don't get me wrong, it's hard sometimes, but with God in it, really, we're in good hands. So 1) Zoey and I aren't dating. 2) We're just friends at this point because of deep issues in my life that need worked out. Whoever I marry, I want to be wholly theirs. And I want to offer them something better than what I can offer right now. So my issues and God, as much as the Intern Leaders or Zoey or I's will, are behind our not-dating. 3) Though there are no strings attached, it is still my heart to discern whether or not Zoey is the woman I am supposed to marry. I believe the coming weeks, months, maybe even year, will be illuminating. Right now I cannot say, and I'm not counting on anything, because everything is so confusing and cloudy at this point. But discerning things between her and I is a top priority. That is all.